Life is confused!

There is total darkness,
its roof top,
you see lights at a distance,
but no light in you,
there are creatures making random noices,
you don't know a thing about what next,
you are confused to think about what,
life, love, carrier, parents,
you are sitting dumb,
thinking to jump off,
but no guts,
the sky turn from dark to blue,
but u r thinking,
endlessly,
irrespective of any thought,
trying to manage things,
that never work up in real life,
at last you feel screwed,
give up the thoughts,
and just go to sleep!

Non-relative Thoughts !

I walk through empty streets,
Looking at every thing around,
Feeling lost in thoughts,
Wondering if i have achieved something yet,
Questioning myself if i have given my 100% ,
I feel i have everything,
But still empty hands,
I bear a heavy smile,
But inside i know the heavy heart,
I walk around like nothing really matter,
But inside i know i have lost too much,
I fear,
I fear to loose more,
I fear to be left alone,
I fear to show up my heart,
I fear that it would be left heavy again!