Life is confused!

There is total darkness,
its roof top,
you see lights at a distance,
but no light in you,
there are creatures making random noices,
you don't know a thing about what next,
you are confused to think about what,
life, love, carrier, parents,
you are sitting dumb,
thinking to jump off,
but no guts,
the sky turn from dark to blue,
but u r thinking,
endlessly,
irrespective of any thought,
trying to manage things,
that never work up in real life,
at last you feel screwed,
give up the thoughts,
and just go to sleep!

Untold Truth of Life !

You were enjoying a life,
playing around all the time,
laughing till stomach pain,
and all of a sudden it changed to heart break,
You feel like your life chocked up,
Feel like you can swim through it,
But someone is pulling you leg down,
Someone is making you kill yourself,
The heart break making you feel all lost,
Lost in the desert of feelings,
Lost in the middle of sea,
Lost in the unworthy world,
Smile is just  mask,
Sad is all you feel inside,
Running away is no choice,
Facing seem to be problem,
Death seem to be an easy option,
You take a deep  breathe,
Stand at the edge,
Watch the beauty of mountains,
Is it worth to die of a heart break,
Is it worth to jump of the edge for,
You feel life is above her,
Life can be lived without her,
This starts again when you reach the place again,
The process,
The method,
The death thoughts,
It keeps repeating!