I fear!
The blast of memories,
Has hit my mind,
Its burning big and more bright,
I fear now,
Even to loose you in my dreams,
I stay awake in fear of loosing you again,
There is an untamed dark,
A furiousness,
A sadness of us apart,
A part of me has always been thinking of you,
May be your story has a whole different part,
The eyes are dull,
Tears gone dry,
Life seems unworthy,
Selfish at times,
May be one day you come back to me,
And again the sun brightly shines!
This is not a poem, just want to share a small story!
There were two friends, the very true ones. After 2 years of such fruitful friendship, they decided to be in a relationship. They thought it might work and by god's grace it did.
They both were enjoying the best moments of their life. There were fights but still talking. They never had a fight longer than 3-4 hours. Both promised to never say no to meet when one of them wants to except in case of emergency. And they always abide by that promise.
But then came the moment, the girl's father was transferred to other city, had teary eyes, but hope to meet soon. The boy went twice to meet.
The third time the boy had a good break and could stay in her city for 3-4 days.
There came the moment, 6 months after her dad's transfer, she met with an accident on her way to meet the boy.
It was 3:30 pm, the girl started her bike for her coaching class as she told her parents, but was going to meet her love.
The boy waited in a hotel, the time passed, the boy fell asleep. When he woke up it was almost 6 pm. He was confused where she might have gone, scared, a little sad, called her friend, but she had a blank answer.
He had his friend's bike, he went on the way to her house, saw people gathered around circle, someone had an accident, he kept moving, he went all the way to her house and back to hotel.
The phone rang, it was her friend, she was crying mad, with crying voice she said your girl is no more, the boy was numb, his world fell apart, just a few tears rolling down the cheeks, the heart almost stopped, no feeling struck him, just a blank mind a blank face and he ran insanely to the hospital.
She was lying on a stretcher, doctors waiting for the police to arrive. He went close, tried holding her hand but it was all crushed. He was not able to listen the hustle around. He hold her head in her palm, kept staring on her blood which was all over her face. The doctors were trying to pull him off the stretcher but he couldn't feel the things. He couldn't stand more, left the stretcher and fell on the chair, just numb with a few tears rolling down his cheeks, and nothing to feel !
Is there any way i could forget you,
Any one who can handle me better than you did,
I try feeling those 5 minutes of your world,
The insane thurst you went through,
The swirling head,
People all over,
All you saw was blood around,
Wanting to meet me,
Hold my hand at that extreme moment,
May be see me the very last time,
Hug me insane,
I wish i was there as i promised,
To be there when no one would,
To hold your hand when your world fall apart,
Those innocent eyes,
The beautiful heart,
The beauty in your words,
The love in your eyes,
The warmth of your hug,
The scent of your curly hair,
The dream i have to be with you,
Is there i any way i could forget you,
Is there anyone who can handle me more than you!
Here i am writing again,
Like a emo going insane,
There is something about this day,
Like i loose my mind,
And sit on the terrace,
And the feeling goes plain,
I remember the moment,
You were coming to meet me,
I was waiting eagerly,
All dressed up,
Ready to meet,
I kept waiting you didn't come,
I fell asleep waiting,
But no knock on the door,
I woke up,
Haze in my eyes,
I looked at time,
Confused where have you gone by?
I looked around,
Called your friends,
All i can remember were there empty frames,
The next i remember was with you,
Around your stretcher,
Holding your head,
Your body cold,
And me going lame,
I was horrified,
Sacred,
Lost,
Numb,
I was struck,
Struck hard in my ache,
All i saw was blood spots,
On your curly hair,
The beautiful eyes,
The sharp nose,
And my heart gets dry,
Your cute lips full of blood,
I tried holding your hand,
But it was all crushed,
I was numb,
I kissed your cheeks and ran away,
Here come again,
The black day,
Which makes me go insane !
Lost in the unworthy world,