I miss us!

It was a saturday night,
When we had a fight,
You cried loud,
And i went for an out,
You burst into tears,
To loose you forever was my fear,
I never wanted us to end that way,
Now all i have is sadness and grey,
I want you back,
But you have gone too far,
I hope for a new beginning,
But the clouds won't fade away,
Now i cry out loud,
And there is no one to hear,
While i sit all alone crying on the Bay !

A new DAWN !

There is perfect silence,
Nobody here,
Everyone gone,
I am sitting alone,
There are few books in the corner,
A speedy fan,
T.V working on its own,
There is drink in my hand,
And head straight looking  from the window at moon,
There are a few blood stains on the table,
May be of mine,
Its not known,
There is thunder outside,
Windows are open,
Still there is suffocation around,
For the reason unknown,
I don't know what did i take,
But i feel high,
And i have been looking at lines on the wall drawn,
Its almost the edge,
End of life,
I stood up,
I could see light,
The sun coming up,
Shining with low light,
Its time to get up,
Work,
Forget the past,
And move on,
I lit up a smoke,
Yes, its time for a new DAWN!

Will you?

Under the summer sun,
Going down the hill,
I wait for you,
Will you back me up,
When i fall,
Will you keep my care,
When there is no one there,
Will you give a hand,
When i couldn't stand,
Will you stand by me,
When no one will,
Will you be loyal,
In this greedy place,
Will you be mine,
This is all i ever wanted to say,
I wait for an answer,
Sitting under the tree,
Under the summer sun,
Going down the hill!

Ever made a stand?

Have you ever made enemies,
Have you ever made someone against you,
Have you ever made someone jealous,
Have you ever made someone hate you,
If you never did anything above,
You never took a stand for anything,
You never stood up for your decision,
You have always compromised for everything,
You never believed yourself,
Yes, you never did anything!

Disguise !

We are humans,
With less humanity,
More insanity,
We laugh at others,
Don't like being laughed at us,
We pretend in front of people,
But true of us come out after,
We show the lie as truth,
N truth as lie,
We are backstabber,
Yes we all are,
To someone,
Not even true ourselves,
We forget relations after money,
We make relations to enjoy the evenings,
We are just incredibly wild,
We are animals in human skin and a total disguise !

The Inside Story !

I move around with a fake smile,
Hiding the true tears,
Smiling at everyone,
But remembering none,
There is break apart inside me,
But i keep laughing at my own,
People say i have grown funny,
But they don't realize the pain i have been through,
Then one of them,
With no gesture,
With no other talk,
She just asked,
"You are not fine, any problem you wanna share?"
My tears burst out to her,
Heart poured out to her,
She hugged me,
And said,
"Don't worry, I am always there".

Monster in me !

I pet a monster in me,
Furious he is,
Hungry he feels,
Blood he seeks,
Want to come out when needs,
I pet a monster in me,
He has been there for years,
Cruel he grows,
Anger is his feed,
Getting stronger is all he means,
I pet a monster in me,
Made of the sadness and anger it deals,
Ready to come out any moment,
Coz revenge is all he needs!

River reflects Life !

We often complicate life,
We try for things not ours,
We try to be what we are not,
Life is a simple river,
There is good flow at childhood,
No worries,
Just a simple flow,
As we move on,
Sometimes there are rash paths,
Stones on the way,
But we move on with them cutting,
Cutting the path,
There are silent beds,
Like life's silent part,
There is utmost destiny meeting the sea,
Life has the utmost destiny,
Death,
Meeting the ALMIGHTY !

We are JAILED !

We're surrounded,
Surrounded by thoughts,
Surrounded by people,
Negativity,
Illusion,
Betrayal,

Backstabber,
We often forget to live by our own,
We are injected by thoughts of other people,
We live on the guideline provided by other,
We live by rules and regulations,
We are trained like every other person,
We are not allowed to think outside the box,
We are jailed to be what other want us to be,
We are never set free,
We are never let lived on our will,
We are just trying to be clone of those great people,
But those great ones are the only ones who are "FREE" !

Missing the other part of ME !

Sitting by the river bank,
Thinking of the worst has happened to me,
Crying out loud still no one can hear me,
Tears rolling on the cheeks with full of sadness,
I thought life has no more reason to be lived,
There came a friend,
A cute doll,
A princess by heart,
Sat besides,
Holding my hand,
Slowly whispering in the ears "I'm here, don't worry" ,
That moment paused,
I wish it paused forever,
We never stopped talking,
We couldn't even try stopping ourselves,
We never had a doubt on each other,
We knew we keep the friendship forever,
But as the time passed by,
I started moving back to the river,
The loud flow,
Not letting anyone hear my cry,
Yes, I am still waiting friend,
Its time now for you to come back,
Hold my hand again,
To pause the moment,
To live again!

Dedicated:- illi ! :(

Finding Happiness !

I wake up everyday,
Trying to feel happy today,
I move on,
I am surrounded by memories,
But i move on,
I try to find happines in friends,
I try finding it in other people,
I try finding it happiness of others,
But i don't,
There is something i lack in,
There is something i am not feeling happy about,
But soon we realise,
Happiness in what we are,
Not in what we are trying to be,
Not in what we pretend to be,
Not in what are not supposed to be,
Happiness is in what you are to yourself and in feeling me !

Saali Khushi !

Ghumte rahe zindagi bhar,
Khoj khushi ki thi,
Saamne mout aayi,
To pata chala zindagi hai wahi khushi hai,
Bachpan me khush the,
Par laga bade hona me khushi hai,
Bade hue to bhi khush the,
Par laga bachpan me khushi thi,
Khushi ke liye kya kuch nahi kiya,
khushi khud me thi,
Par pura zamana dhudh liya !

First Love!

She was sitting in front bench,
I kept starring,
She was questioning teachers,
I kept starring,
She was eating,
She was playing,
She gossip,
She walk,
Her expressions,
Her attitude,

Her smile,
I kept starring,
I made an approach,
Heart beating fast,
Confusion how to start,
Head banging,
Throat thirsty,
Words won't come out,
I said 'Hey' ,
She smiled,
And then we just never stopped,
Yes it was the first love,
The last love,
The only love!

Losing ourself !

We face serious accidents in life,
Accidents that doesn't hurt physically,
But emotionally,
You meet someone,
You feel right about them,
You put up everything to have them,
You loose other relation sometimes to hold them,
You know there is no turning back,
But you face the defeat,
You face the guilt,
They leave you for unknown stupid and idiotic reason,
They leave you for none of a reason,
You face fade in your life,
You face hate,
You face ignorance,
You face sadness,
You face guilt for those other relations,
You face dusk,
You know its dark ahead,
You feel low,
And all you have is the lost Glow!