Non-relative Thoughts !

I walk through empty streets,
Looking at every thing around,
Feeling lost in thoughts,
Wondering if i have achieved something yet,
Questioning myself if i have given my 100% ,
I feel i have everything,
But still empty hands,
I bear a heavy smile,
But inside i know the heavy heart,
I walk around like nothing really matter,
But inside i know i have lost too much,
I fear,
I fear to loose more,
I fear to be left alone,
I fear to show up my heart,
I fear that it would be left heavy again!

Maturity !

Maturity,
Its not when you are an adult,
Its not when puberty hit you,
Its not when you think it,
You are mature,
When you know the value of people,
Rather than value of things,
When you start forgiving people,
When you try to understand the misunderstanding,
When you learn to move on,
When you feel responsible,
When you know the difference between right and wrong,
When you start showing worth to yourself,
Maturity doesn't come with age,
But with experience!

Love to get you back !

Itne dino baad khushi mehsus ki hai, 
Dil ki dhadkane asal me chalne lagi hai, 
Thoda samajh kam aa raha hai, 
Khushi se aankhen nam karne ki icha hai, 
In khushiyon ko chum lun aaj, 
Baahon me bhar lun, 
Inhe kabhi juda na hone dun, 
Pal pal bas saara aaj hi jee lene jaisa lag raha,
Kash ye pal guzar na jaaye kabhi, 
Fir ye dost bichad na jaaye kabhi,
Bas hath pakad tera thoda sa ro lun, 
Teri god me sir rakh kar sukun paa lun, 
Tujhe gale laga tujhe kitna yaad kiya bata dun, 
Bas ab jaana nai, 
Kabhi bhi, 
Bas nai jaana ! :)

Dedicated to illi ! :)

Love you !

Yaadon ki baarat lekar jeeye jaa raha hun,
Dard se rishta jode ab hansne ki koshish kiye jaa raha hun,
Kasame kha kar thak chuka hun,
Ke ab kabhi tujhe yaad nai karunga,
Teri yaad me ye aankhen nam na karunga,
Is dil ko tere kare se kabhi dard na dunga,
Par kasame ab todne ki aadat si ho gayi hai maano,
Ajib si kashmkash hai ye,
Ke ab jeeye kyu jaa rahe hain,
Abhi bhi tujhe kyun yaad karte hain,
Abhi bhi kyu rote hain,
Aaj bhi meri aankhon ki gehraiyon ko padhle,
Tujhe pata chal jaayega hum tujhse pyaar kitna karte hain !


Dedicated to illi ! :)

I want to be there !

I don't mind if you are busy the whole day,
I won't complain if can't talk even nights,
But i want to be there when you want to be alone,
I want to be there when every other person take a step back,
I want to be there when you have those teary eyes,
I won't complain if we cannot have long chats,
I won't complain if i cannot be a part of your success, happiness,
But i want to be there when you lose your self,
I want to be there when you get sad and don't wanna listen to anyone, i would be there to listen to you and be quite all along,
I can't be there for you all the time ,
But i want to be there when you need a shoulder to share your sadness, your dark little secrets, your small little things you can't share with anyone else,
I just never want to let cry yourself to sleep,
I never want you to be in a bad mood right in the morning,
I just want to have to have the good morning and good nights chats with you if nothing else the whole day !

Dedicated to illi ! :)

Ironic Love !

Head start to bang,
Tongue start to shiver,
Throat unable to throw words,
Hands get cold,
Eyes don't blink,
Ears fade to hear,
Legs rarely support to stand,
The only difference is,
Before it was in excitement,
Now in total sadness ! :(

My Best Friend !

Really, you want me to describe my best friend, 
Let me tell you a few of her trends,
I say no girl beautiful than her,
No one caring as much she is,
No one can suit those dimples she have,
My best friend,
Yeah you have no match to her,
She is above you understand,
You can't judge her,
She is above your expectation,
She is two steps ahead of what you think she is,
She is notorious at times,
She is strict the other,
She will slap you on your bad,
Will show no less love when she is with you,
She care like a mother do,
Be strict like a father on your habits,
Be like a sister when you want to share something,
And protect you like a brother when you need her to,
You know what, she has no match in the living world,
Lucky enough to have her on my side,
Now i see my best friend on one and the rest of the world on the other side!

Dedicated to illi ! :)

Unforgettable love!

Aaj teri yaad aayi hai mujhe,
To ye kalam ne bhi sath de diya,
Us din bhi isi haalat me tha,
Jis din tune mera hath chod diya,
Bhul paane ki koshishen naakam si ho rahi hai ab,
Dil meri manane ko taiyaar hi nai hota,
Bas aankhen nam ai ho jaati hai ab,
Ek jhunjhuni si uth jaati hai badan me jab vo halaat yaad aate hain,
Teri vo tasveer saamne aati hain,
Tere vo udhada hua badan,
Teri vo hothon pe hansi ki jagah khoon ke dhabbe,
Tera vo hamesha ke liye chup ho jaana,
Tera vo bina soche samjhe mujhe chod jaana,
Mera bas chup raha,
Ek aansu tak na baha paaya me,
Saari indriyan jaise chalna band ho gayi ho,
Dhadkane bas ruki ruki si chal rahi thi,
Aankhen bhi khulne se mana karne lagi thi,
Kuch soch samajh nai paa raha tha,
Bas akele hi apne raaste chale jaa raha tha,
Vo teri yaaden,
Teri baaten,
Tera itrana,
Teri hansi,
Teri aankhon ki nami,
Teri shararaten,
Teri badmaashi,
Tera gussa,
Tera pyaar,
Bas sab lekar akele chale jaa raha tha,
Bas kabhi ro hi nai paaya,
Shayad rone ki himmat tak khatm ho chuki thi,
Tera vo mera hath pakad titanic ke poses dena,
Tera meri aankhon me dekh mujhe uljha dena,
Tera mujhe teri zulfon ki khushbu se madhosh kar dena,
Tera mujhe teri god me sulakar pyaar dena,
Aur tera vo pyaar se mere baalon me hath ferna,
Ab kya bacha hai,
Bas main,
Akela,
Sab kuch kabhi kabhi khatam sa lagta hai,
Ek pal tujhe yaad kar,
Apne aap ko sambhal leta hun,
Chalti ka naam zindagi kehne waalon ko pyaar ka andaaza nai shayad,
Ek baar dil rakh dete kisi ke kadmo me to pata chalta, zinda mout si hai ye ZINDAGI!

Love confusion!

Yes, I live in past,
But i want you to move on,
I have no control of my feelings,
I want you to flush them off,
I can't resist remembering her all the time,
But i want you to forget him,
I have been and going through the pain,
But i want cure yours,
Yes i am a little unorganized,
But i want to assemble up happiness to you now,
I have been in sorrow for a long time,
But i feel happy to see you happy now,
I feel majestic,
When i make you smile,
I feel the lost laugh of mine,
When i am teasing you,
I am no worth for your match,
But certainly worth a friend,
I am loving guy,
But learning how to love from you,
I am in pain,
But i learn how to smile in the pain from you,
I am not always wrong,
But i be wrong all the time to give you chance to correct me,
I feel proud to have you, may be a little, by my side,
I may be wrong in relation view on your side,
But past is past, need to forget it,
Don't burn up the burnt area,
Move away from past not get closer to get hurt of,
I may be wrong but I am not always as i suppose!

Dedicated illi !

Encouragement !

Abhi to zindagi me bohot kuch dekhna baaki hai,
Man abhi se dol gaya to piche hi reh jaana hai,
Saare aansu saare waade tod ab tujhe aage bad jaana hai,
Bohot ro liya hai tu ab uske liye,
Ab tujhe piche moodkar nai dekhna hai,
Zinda hai tu abhi zindagi jeena baaki hai,
Dhadkane karde apne lakshya ke naam,
Abhi tujhe duniya me naam kamana baaki hai,
Tujhe ab apni aukaat se bahar jaana baaki hai,
Tod de ye bhavnaon ke janjaal ko,
Ab tujhe gir kar uthna hi hoga,
Dil lagi chod apne liye ab tujhe aage badna hi hoga,
Paisa hoga to jeene me maza hoga,
Lekin fir ye baat yaad rakhna kisi gareeb ka haal puchna baaki hai,
Uth khade ho ab, dhul jhadka kar bhag ab tu,
Ab tujhe duniya ko tu kya hai vo dikhana baaki hai!

Motivating!

Samandar ki lehron sa banana hai tujhe,
Betok behisaab behana hai tujhe,
Sir fe kafan bandh apne lakshya pe nishana sadh,
Mat kar parwah dil lagi ki,
Dil lagi to aajkal aam baat hai,
Mat kar chinta dosti ki,
Dost hamesha sath hai,
Jo piche chut jaata hai choot jaane de,
Jo hath me aaye use chod mat,
Bas ab dekh vo machli ki aankh ko saadhna hai tujhe! :)

Kal hum na rahenge!

Zindagi thodi si choti hai,
Waqt ki kami hai,
Aaj sath hain kal hum na rahenge,
Kab kaun ye zindagi chod jaaye pata nai chalega,
Kal me na raha to tum aansu bahaoge,
Mjhe nai pata chalega isliye aaj baha lo,
Kal me na raha to mujhe yaad karoge,
Mujhe nai pata chalega isliye aaj yaad rakho,
Kal me na raha to humse ek baar milne ki mannate karoge,
Mujhe nai pata chalega aaj mil lo,
Kal me na raha to hum ache the kahoge,
Mujhe nai pata chalega aaj keh do,
Kal hum nai rahe to sochoge kaash kuch din bas kuch din aur mil paate baat karne ke,
Mujhe nai pata chalega aaj baat kar lo,
Logon ka zindagi me aana jaana laga hi rahega,
Bas baat ye hai ke kab kaun kaisa hai hamare liye,
Ye unke jaane ke baad hi pata chalega!

Challenges in LOVE !

Time changes,
So as people,
And does the feelings,
We try hard to make someone love us,
But we forget to try once we have them,
We show utmost care till they are far away,
We forget to care when they are so close,
We put up fights,
Be jealous,
Love them,
Help them,
But once they are yours,
You forget to even remember them the whole day,
We talk hours before,
Couldn't even take out minutes to talk later,
It isn't that the love and care is over,
But the challenge remains is,
We forget to show our love and care for them! :)

You are only one of your kind !

You are a warrior,
You face problem unavoidable,
You live rough,
You tackle bad emotions,
You feel the worse sometimes,
You go through the baddest world,
You still live on,
Giving answer to each obstacle,
Smiling in bad condition,
Laughing in worse,
You are a warrior,
You are a legend in yourself,
You are what you are,
Unchangeable,
Only one of your kind,
Be PROUD !

People around us!

People will come by,
Leave you,
Teach you a lesson for life,
And forget you,
But only rare are worth to stay,
And study these lessons with you,
They are more than your best friends,
Less than lover,
Care for you more,
And be jealous moreover,
They hide up there some feelings,
And try not to hurt you ever,
They know you,
Deeper than you know yourself,
They trust in you,
More than themselves,
They be honest with you,
More than to any other,
They did get hurt,
When you talk about the guy, your lover,
There lay we both,
In the same manner,
Fighting each other,
Loving each other,
Caring,
Helping,
Offending,
And being more than just best friends,
But always less than Lovers ! :P :P

Dedicated illi ! :)

Childhood Life !

Kab aur kyun bade ho gaye,
Chote the to shehansha the ghar me,
Ab kam hi bakhat hai hamari,
Chote the to sirf khilone tutne ka dar hota tha,
Aaj dil tutne ka dar rehta hai,
Chote the to ghar me hi ghum liya karte the,
Aaj shehar kam padta hai ghumne ko,
Chote the to dar bas maa aur papa ki maar se lagta tha,
Ab bade ho gaye hain to darna bhul gaye hain,
Chote the to maa ki saari baaten maan lete the,
Dar tha ke maa naraaz ho jaayegi to pyaar kaun karega mujhe,
Chote the to ghar se 50 paise lekar pepsi khaya karte the,
Aaj to pata nai kya kya hath lag gaya hai,
Chote the to papa se zid karke khilone kharid'te the,
Aur doston ko naye khilone dikha kar chidate the,
Ab bade ho gaye to chizon ki kadar hi bhul gaye hain,
Pehle kya pehna hai, kaise dikh rahe hain kabhi nai sochte the,
Aaj saala jaise maano in sab me hi duniya basi ho,
Chote the to ghar ki galiyon me cycle lekar jaana shaan ki baat lagti thi,
Aaj saala jeb me 20000 ka mobile chahiye hota hai shaan dikhane ko,
Pehle rote the to pura ghar sir pe utha lete the,
Aaj aansuon ka sailab andhere ki char diwari me hi aata hai,
Pehle bhari dhoop me khelne me bhi maza aata tha,
Ab mobile ke khel khelne me busy hai,
Pehle maa chilla chilla kar ghar me bulati thi,
Aur apne hathon se khana khilati thi,
Ab bas khana kha liya puchna hi kaafi padta hai,
Saala chote the to nawaab the yaar, pyaar, nafrat, irshya, in sab se dur the,
Aaj zindagi maano bas inhi bhavanaon me dubi hui si hai,
Saala bade kab aur kyun ho gaye

Bas tum!

Koi mujhse puche to kaise bataun tum mere liye kya ho,
In baadlon me tum,
In sitaron me tum ho,
Is chaand me tum ho,
Is suraj me tum ho,
In zamino me tum ho,
In aasmano me tum ho,
Pedo (Tree) me tum,
Pattiyon (leaf) me tum,
In deewaron me tum,
Meri baaton me tum,
Kya bataun tum mujhme kaise samayi ho,
Kaise bataun kis kadar mere dimag par chayi ho,
In hawaon me tum,
Udti pakshiyon me tum,
Foolon ko khushbu me tum,
Mere pahluon me tum,
Kaise bataun kis kadar tum mere dimag par chayi ho,
In jharno me tum,
Is behate paani me tum,
Khilti kaliyon me bhi tum ho,
Har ehsaas me tum,
Har jazbaat me tum,
Har awaaz me tum,
Bas is kadar mere dil par chayi ho jaise,
Sota hun to tum,
Jaagta hun to bas tum dikhayi aati ho,
Bas kami is baat ki TAQDEER tum nahi!

Life is worth !

Life,
Its more beautiful than you think,
More happier than you feel,
The problem is,
We give away the key to our happiness to other,
We forget to change the lock,
We depend on others for our happiness,
We give away easily,
We let others hurt us,
We let others bully us,
We let others take our advantage,
We start disrespecting ourselves,
we don't realize our worth,
We just loose ourselves to nothing,
We push ourselves to no place,
A lonely place,
Where you feel no one can hurt you,
But later on you realize,
You are hurting yourself!

Lost !

I walk alone,
On an unknown path,
Hands full of sadness,
Eyes full of tears,
Looking at people passing by,
Comparing my life to others,
Head banging like a drum,
Legs shivering thinking about the upcoming,
I feel lost,
Lost like in a desert,
Lost like in a mid-sea,
Lost like among unknown people,
Lost like a pin in a hay,
Lost like will never win again,
Hours, Days, months, year has passed by,
I am still lost,
In the memories we shared,
In the pain we bared,
There is no hope,
I am Lost in the hope of hopelessness!

Untold Truth of Life !

You were enjoying a life,
playing around all the time,
laughing till stomach pain,
and all of a sudden it changed to heart break,
You feel like your life chocked up,
Feel like you can swim through it,
But someone is pulling you leg down,
Someone is making you kill yourself,
The heart break making you feel all lost,
Lost in the desert of feelings,
Lost in the middle of sea,
Lost in the unworthy world,
Smile is just  mask,
Sad is all you feel inside,
Running away is no choice,
Facing seem to be problem,
Death seem to be an easy option,
You take a deep  breathe,
Stand at the edge,
Watch the beauty of mountains,
Is it worth to die of a heart break,
Is it worth to jump of the edge for,
You feel life is above her,
Life can be lived without her,
This starts again when you reach the place again,
The process,
The method,
The death thoughts,
It keeps repeating!

Confused about Life!

Sitting alone,
Facing the calm water,
Watching the sun sinking off the sea,
Thinking and admiring,
Have i ever made someone smile?
If yes, why did that person let me sit here all alone,
Thinking have i ever made my parents proud?
If yes, why do they never show it?
Asking myself, what am I ?
Am i important to someone?
Am i worth?
Am i the rightful son?
I hope I am,
I hope I will prove,
I hope I could be the only one for my someone! :)

On Women' Day! :)

As a mother,
She gave you birth,
Took care of you,
She gave up her dreams,
To grow you up,
As a sister,
She played your best friend,
She kept your secrets,
She helped you out in troubles,
As a girl friend,
She was there when you felt bad,
She was there when you had a fight home,
She loved you more than deserve,
She heard you when no one wanted to,
As a wife,
She left her family for you,
She supported you in every role,
She loved you like you never thougt of,
She stood by your decisions,
She spent her whole life with you,
Women,
She is the best and most beautiful part of men's life,
She is not a thing to be used,
She is a special one,
One to be loved,
One to be taken care of,
One to be held tight,
Your life is umcomplete without her,
She is the one who was always there for you! :)
Respect ! :)

Infant Killing!

What a girl want to say to her parents in the womb, when her parents decide killing her!





Maa,
Mujhe mat maro,
Me aapki saari baat maanungi,
Kabhi zidd nai karungi,
Kisi baat par aapko tang nai karungi,
Maa,
Papa se kehna meri padhai ke kharche ki chinta na kare,
Me bhaiyya ki kitabon se hi padh lungi,
Mere liye jaada naye naye kapde laane ki jarurat nai maa,
Me har baar apne purane kapdon me hi santusht rahungi,
Aur papa se kehna meri shaadi ki chinta na kare,
Me ache se padh likh kar,
Aapke aur papa ke budhape ka sahara banungi,
Maa bas mujhe maro mat,
Mujhe duniya me aane se mat roko,
Mujhe bahar ki khubsurati dekhne se vanchit na karo,
Mujhe khilne do,
Mujhe bas jeene do "Maa"
Mujhe bas jeene do! :)

A Girl Before Marriage!

A feel of a Girl before she get married!
Papa aaj mujhe itna pyaar na karo,
Kal mujhe shayad itna pyaar na mile,
Papa aaj mujhe mat apnapan na dikhao,
Kal aapse paraaye hone me dard hoga,
Papa mere liye itna dukh mat jhelo,
Kal shayad me is baat ko sochkar dukhi na hone lagun,

Papa meri zidd itni na mana karo,
Kal shayad mujhe unsuna hi rehna pade,
Papa mera itna khayal na karo,
Kal shayad koi meri taraf dhyaan bhi nai dega,
Mera liye itna sab kuch mat karo papa,
Kal shayad hi mere koi itna sochega,
Tab dard hoga papa,
Yaad aayegi aapki,
Aaj pass ho aap aansun ponchne ko,
Kal shayad ek char deewari naseeb hogi in aansuon ko,
Papa mujhe vida na karo khud se,
Kahin kho na jaaun me aapse vida hokar,
Itna dur na karo khud se,
Ke dhundh na paao mere bulane par,
Itna paraya na karo,
ke ye aansun sukh jaaye aapke aane tak!

The inside story of heart!

Raat ke andhere me deewaron pe aankhen gadaye baithe ho,
Yaad aa rahi hai unki par majboor ho tum,
Doston ki mehfil me hanste hanste kuch soch rahe ho,
Hans rahe par man hi man ro rahe ho tum,
Khuda se khudki ke nai unke liye dua maang rahe ho,
Dur ho unse par unhe paana chahte ho tum,
Jaam hath me aur kasame unki kha rahe ho,
Dard me dube ho par jatana nai chahte ho tum,

Yaadon me unki takiyon pe aansuon ki sailaab laa rahe ho,
Zinda ho bar bejaan ho tum,
Sabhi se ghul milkar kar hansne ki koshish kar rahe ho,
Jee rahe ho par marna chahte ho tum!
😊

Hunger for love!

I need you the way,
Ink for words,
Essence for flower,
Colour to white,
Food to hungry,
You are like water in a desert, to me,
You are like a tooth fairy to a child, to me,
You are like sunshine for light, to me,
You are like a blanket cosy to me,
Like clouds in sky,

Like droplets on a leaf,
Like honey bee to honey,
Like rivers flowing to the sea,
Like a mother to a child,
The same way you are to me !