I fear!
The blast of memories,
Has hit my mind,
Its burning big and more bright,
I fear now,
Even to loose you in my dreams,
I stay awake in fear of loosing you again,
There is an untamed dark,
A furiousness,
A sadness of us apart,
A part of me has always been thinking of you,
May be your story has a whole different part,
The eyes are dull,
Tears gone dry,
Life seems unworthy,
Selfish at times,
May be one day you come back to me,
And again the sun brightly shines!
The rainy day i still remember,
You were moving away i felt,
What in the world was my mistake?,
Where in the life did i go wrong?,
You left this heart alone,
Broken pieces,
Don't look away,
Is all i could say,
I cried,
I felt i won't survive,
Where in the world did i go worng?
I could still remember,
A non reason bye,
Tears in your eyes,
Pain in your heart,
Most hurtful goodbye,
Most dreadful cry,
Here i am writing again,
Remembering your ignorance,
All i wanna ask again,
What in the world was my mistake?,
Where in the life did i go wrong?
This is not a poem, just want to share a small story!
There were two friends, the very true ones. After 2 years of such fruitful friendship, they decided to be in a relationship. They thought it might work and by god's grace it did.
They both were enjoying the best moments of their life. There were fights but still talking. They never had a fight longer than 3-4 hours. Both promised to never say no to meet when one of them wants to except in case of emergency. And they always abide by that promise.
But then came the moment, the girl's father was transferred to other city, had teary eyes, but hope to meet soon. The boy went twice to meet.
The third time the boy had a good break and could stay in her city for 3-4 days.
There came the moment, 6 months after her dad's transfer, she met with an accident on her way to meet the boy.
It was 3:30 pm, the girl started her bike for her coaching class as she told her parents, but was going to meet her love.
The boy waited in a hotel, the time passed, the boy fell asleep. When he woke up it was almost 6 pm. He was confused where she might have gone, scared, a little sad, called her friend, but she had a blank answer.
He had his friend's bike, he went on the way to her house, saw people gathered around circle, someone had an accident, he kept moving, he went all the way to her house and back to hotel.
The phone rang, it was her friend, she was crying mad, with crying voice she said your girl is no more, the boy was numb, his world fell apart, just a few tears rolling down the cheeks, the heart almost stopped, no feeling struck him, just a blank mind a blank face and he ran insanely to the hospital.
She was lying on a stretcher, doctors waiting for the police to arrive. He went close, tried holding her hand but it was all crushed. He was not able to listen the hustle around. He hold her head in her palm, kept staring on her blood which was all over her face. The doctors were trying to pull him off the stretcher but he couldn't feel the things. He couldn't stand more, left the stretcher and fell on the chair, just numb with a few tears rolling down his cheeks, and nothing to feel !
Passing by a street,
It was a cold night,
Saw more than a dozen of empty stomach,
Laying by the footpath,
Under the yellow street light,
With stomachs burning bright,
A small kid walked to me,
A hungry face,
The bones sticking out,
Clothes torned,
And a bowl in his hand,
He asked for some money,
Or may be some food,
I was too lost feeling the burn,
Gave him a little,
He ran to the shop,
Bought something to eat,
Then he looked at me,
Had a happy face,
A big smile,
But there was water in my eyes,
I wish i could give all stomachs something,
But i had no more nothing that night!
My life is a lie,
The relations,
The people,
The care,
The love,
Everything is total lie,
We stand by someone cuz we need them,
We love cuz we want ourself to be loved,
Its a web we create,
And get trapped more n more,
As we make more n more strings,
There is no getting out of it,
Just being happy is never a choice,
All we hear is scary noises,
Scream,
Pain,
Hurt,
All around,
And we loose faith,
And find another person to make us happy again!
Here i am writing again,
Like a emo going insane,
There is something about this day,
Like i loose my mind,
And sit on the terrace,
And the feeling goes plain,
I remember the moment,
You were coming to meet me,
I was waiting eagerly,
All dressed up,
Ready to meet,
I kept waiting you didn't come,
I fell asleep waiting,
But no knock on the door,
I woke up,
Haze in my eyes,
I looked at time,
Confused where have you gone by?
I looked around,
Called your friends,
All i can remember were there empty frames,
The next i remember was with you,
Around your stretcher,
Holding your head,
Your body cold,
And me going lame,
I was horrified,
Sacred,
Lost,
Numb,
I was struck,
Struck hard in my ache,
All i saw was blood spots,
On your curly hair,
The beautiful eyes,
The sharp nose,
And my heart gets dry,
Your cute lips full of blood,
I tried holding your hand,
But it was all crushed,
I was numb,
I kissed your cheeks and ran away,
Here come again,
The black day,
Which makes me go insane !
Looking at people passing by,
