When you were Gone!

When you were gone,
I had this silent pray,
To get you back,
To move away from my dark,
I seem to be a little lost,
Roaming around like a haunted ghost,
There was a beilief in you,
Thats my prayers won't go in vain,
I had trust to get you back,
I knew no one can take you away from me,
I knew i have been honest and true by all means,
Yes, those chants, prayers has worked for me,
You are here again with me,
The old we,
The old us,
Honest,
Trustful,
With your hand in my hand,
Its all what i ever wanted,
I wish it stays like this always,
And we never see an end!

Its always like the first look!

Everytime i see you,
Its always like the first look,
The same feeling run around in my body,
Like it did when i very first time saw you,
The slow motion world,
The deaf ears,
Eyes starring at your face,
The heart beating faster,
The feelings getting stronger,
Empty words,
Throat all soaked up,
The most cheerful smile,
On the most graceful face,
With those beautiful eyes,
And a mole just above that upper lip,
Yes i am in love with you,
I fall more and more everytime i see you,
Coz everytime i see you,
Its like the first look!

Memories renewed!

You are!

Since i know the word love,
I have known you,
You have come to me,
As a pink among red,
A life among dead,
A light in dark,
A needle in a hay,
So rare you are,
Perfect you are,
I can tell you never to change,
The world might fall apart,
Everyone might turn strange,
But I'll be there when i am needed,
Yes you are my dearest,
And hardest memory,
Stay here,
Don't change,
Coz someday i might need you again,
Like the first day!

Its only for you!

I keep writing,
Happy,
Sad,
Lost,
Confused,
Missing someone,
Any emotion,
I keep writing,
But there is always you,
In my details,
There is you in my words,
In my talks,
In my feels,
In my deals,
In dreams,
In glances,
In trances,
There is you in my mind,
There is you my eyes,
I day dream to be with you,
I stop by at a random distance as i am thinking of you,
I pass by your house,
May be to get a glance of you,
Coz there is love in my heart,
And it belongs only to you!

I FEAR !

I fear!

The blast of memories,
Has hit my mind,
Its burning big and more bright,
I fear now,
Even to loose you in my dreams,
I stay awake in fear of loosing you again,
There is an untamed dark,
A furiousness,
A sadness of us apart,
A part of me has always been thinking of you,
May be your story has a whole different part,
The eyes are dull,
Tears gone dry,
Life seems unworthy,
Selfish at times,
May be one day you come back to me,
And again the sun brightly shines!

The love for you!

There is no denial,
There is no second thought,
The love for you,
Its undefined,
Immature but true,
Its like love between a flower and bee,
Like Pen n paper,
Like pair of eyes,
A creature and a shadow,
The love for you,
Its beautiful,
Its wild,
Crazy,
Untamed,
The limit by far has been crossed,
Its like i am incomplete without you,
Like a night is incomplete without a moon,
And like the sun is incomplete without its light,
You are the light in dark,
A partner in my grey,
A smile in my cry,
A laugh in my bad,
There is no denial,
There is no second thought,
That i love you,
More than you do!

What was my MISTAKE?

The rainy day i still remember,
You were moving away i felt,
What in the world was my mistake?,
Where in the life did i go wrong?,
You left this heart alone,
Broken pieces,
Don't look away,
Is all i could say,
I cried,
I felt i won't survive,
Where in the world did i go worng?
I could still remember,
A non reason bye,
Tears in your eyes,
Pain in your heart,
Most hurtful goodbye,
Most dreadful cry,
Here i am writing again,
Remembering your ignorance,
All i wanna ask again,
What in the world was my mistake?,
Where in the life did i go wrong?

The First Look !

I was sitting at the last bench,
You on the third,
I kept staring all day,
But you didn't notice so far,
Once you came n sat besides me,
You had beautiful eyes,
N they were staring at me,
I slowly slowly looked deeper in your eyes,
I could sum up your whole life with me,
My eyes didn't blink,
Hand were shaking,
Tongue was numb,
Head was empty,
Ears went deaf,
The only thing i could do,
Is imagine myself forever with you,
I didn't knew if it was love at first sight,
But all i knew is you were perfect,
And i could do was bend my eyes,
A red rose in my hand,
Propose you in front of everyone,
Say she is my girl,
And i love her,
Until the sun shines bright!

Its a Story!

This is not a poem, just want to share a small story!

There were two friends, the very true ones. After 2 years of such fruitful friendship, they decided to be in a relationship. They thought it might work and by god's grace it did.

They both were enjoying the best moments of their life. There were fights but still talking. They never had a fight longer than 3-4 hours. Both promised to never say no to meet when one of them wants to except in case of emergency. And they always abide by that promise.

But then came the moment, the girl's father was transferred to other city, had teary eyes, but hope to meet soon. The boy went twice to meet.

The third time the boy had a good break and could stay in her city for 3-4 days.

There came the moment, 6 months after her dad's transfer, she met with an accident on her way to meet the boy.

It was 3:30 pm, the girl started her bike for her coaching class as she told her parents, but was going to meet her love.

The boy waited in a hotel, the time passed, the boy fell asleep. When he woke up it was almost 6 pm. He was confused where she might have gone, scared, a little sad, called her friend, but she had a blank answer.

He had his friend's bike, he went on the way to her house, saw people gathered around circle, someone had an accident, he kept moving, he went all the way to her house and back to hotel.

The phone rang, it was her friend, she was crying mad, with crying voice she said your girl is no more, the boy was numb, his world fell apart, just a few tears rolling down the cheeks, the heart almost stopped, no feeling struck him, just a blank mind a blank face and he ran insanely to the hospital.

She was lying on a stretcher, doctors waiting for the police to arrive. He went close, tried holding her hand but it was all crushed. He was not able to listen the hustle around. He hold her head in her palm, kept staring on her blood which was all over her face. The doctors were trying to pull him off the stretcher but he couldn't feel the things. He couldn't stand more, left the stretcher and fell on the chair, just numb with a few tears rolling down his cheeks, and nothing to feel !

The Poor Kid I Met!

Passing by a street,
It was a cold night,
Saw more than a dozen of empty stomach,
Laying by the footpath,
Under the yellow street light,
With stomachs burning bright,
A small kid walked to me,
A hungry face,
The bones sticking out,
Clothes torned,
And a bowl in his hand,
He asked for some money,
Or may be some food,
I was too lost feeling the burn,
Gave him a little,
He ran to the shop,
Bought something to eat,
Then he looked at me,
Had a happy face,
A big smile,
But there was water in my eyes,
I wish i could give all stomachs something,
But i had no more nothing that night!

We are afraid to help!

It was a winter evening,
A beggar round the corner,
Cold,
Needy,
Almost in hands of death,
As it seem so,
A man looking from a distance,
The beggar had watery eyes,
The man wanted to help,
But afraid to be step up,
As he saw a crime,
A man desguised in beggar,
Looted a wealthy wife,
He remembered the incident,
Didn't stop,
Was able and willing to help,
But the fear struck by,
The world has grown scary,
The people are acting as pest,
And we have lost the pesticide.

My Life Is a BIG LIE !

My life is a lie,
The relations,
The people,
The care,
The love,
Everything is total lie,
We stand by someone cuz we need them,
We love cuz we want ourself to be loved,
Its a web we create,
And get trapped more n more,
As we make more n more strings,
There is no getting out of it,
Just being happy is never a choice,
All we hear is scary noises,
Scream,
Pain,
Hurt,
All around,
And we loose faith,
And find another person to make us happy again!

I miss you!

Is there any way i could forget you,
Any one who can handle me better than you did,
I try feeling those 5 minutes of your world,
The insane thurst you went through,
The swirling head,
People all over,
All you saw was blood around,
Wanting to meet me,
Hold my hand at that extreme moment,
May be see me the very last time,
Hug me insane,
I wish i was there as i promised,
To be there when no one would,
To hold your hand when your world fall apart,
Those innocent eyes,
The beautiful heart,
The beauty in your words,
The love in your eyes,
The warmth of your hug,
The scent of your curly hair,
The dream i have to be with you,
Is there i any way i could forget you,
Is there anyone who can handle me more than you!

The Black Day!

Here i am writing again,
Like a emo going insane,
There is something about this day,
Like i loose my mind,
And sit on the terrace,
And the feeling goes plain,
I remember the moment,
You were coming to meet me,
I was waiting eagerly,
All dressed up,
Ready to meet,
I kept waiting you didn't come,
I fell asleep waiting,
But no knock on the door,
I woke up,
Haze in my eyes,
I looked at time,
Confused where have you gone by?
I looked around,
Called your friends,
All i can remember were there empty frames,
The next i remember was with you,
Around your stretcher,
Holding your head,
Your body cold,
And me going lame,
I was horrified,
Sacred,
Lost,
Numb,
I was struck,
Struck hard in my ache,
All i saw was blood spots,
On your curly hair,
The beautiful eyes,
The sharp nose,
And my heart gets dry,
Your cute lips full of blood,
I tried holding your hand,
But it was all crushed,
I was numb,
I kissed your cheeks and ran away,
Here come again,
The black day,
Which makes me go insane !

Hurt Deep Inside!

There is pain i hide,
emotion i don't show,
i try to be normal,
whether we are talking or not,
i try not to be overreactive,
i try not to be possessive,
i just try to protect you from everyone,
so no one can hurt ur innocent heart,
but you know deep down its killing me,
the very thought of us not talking breaking me,
the imagination of us being apart crushes me down,
well i am hurt deep inside,
but i never cry,
i smile to make you smile,
i try,
to make you laugh,
thats all i ever wanted to do,
but i am hurt every now and then deep inside!

Hail Trance!

Hail Music,
This is something,
we can never get irritated with,
a boon to ears,
softness in eyes,
heart beating in rythm with music,
world left behind,
time moving slow,
i am working high,
trance takes me higher,
i love the way it makes feel,
and i am no more a liar,
there is nothing to worry,
everything is in my hand,
i am in some other world,
Cuz i am listening to Trance! :)

Life is confused!

There is total darkness,
its roof top,
you see lights at a distance,
but no light in you,
there are creatures making random noices,
you don't know a thing about what next,
you are confused to think about what,
life, love, carrier, parents,
you are sitting dumb,
thinking to jump off,
but no guts,
the sky turn from dark to blue,
but u r thinking,
endlessly,
irrespective of any thought,
trying to manage things,
that never work up in real life,
at last you feel screwed,
give up the thoughts,
and just go to sleep!

Worst moment in LIFE !

There were people around talking,
i did not hear a thing,
people running around,
doctors trying to take me of the stretcher,
but i did not feel anything,
i was close to heart stop,
but it didn't,
i was numb holding ur head,
seeing those blood spots on your clothes,
 on your closed eyes,
i knew you won't come back now,
knew u can't feel me,
but tried holding u hard,
i tried holding your hand,
but felt the hand all crushed,
i couldn't take off the blanket,
to see your hand all rushed,
There was blood all i can see,
and the hopes fading away,
and numbness in my head can never flee,
the moment i can never forget,
and the only thing i never wanted to see !

We are using each other!

There is a story behind every tear drop,
some show the pain we have been through,
few show the happy moments,
many of them are of the scary part of us,
and other are othe people we are scared of,
people these days use each other,
the concept of a relationship has gone past by,
people shake hands to make profit,
while some people hug just to pass by their free time,
there is no sense in being sensible,
all the people around are just horrible,
there is no feeling,
just selfishness,
people around are there to use you,
and slowly you learn you are using people too!

I miss us!

It was a saturday night,
When we had a fight,
You cried loud,
And i went for an out,
You burst into tears,
To loose you forever was my fear,
I never wanted us to end that way,
Now all i have is sadness and grey,
I want you back,
But you have gone too far,
I hope for a new beginning,
But the clouds won't fade away,
Now i cry out loud,
And there is no one to hear,
While i sit all alone crying on the Bay !

A new DAWN !

There is perfect silence,
Nobody here,
Everyone gone,
I am sitting alone,
There are few books in the corner,
A speedy fan,
T.V working on its own,
There is drink in my hand,
And head straight looking  from the window at moon,
There are a few blood stains on the table,
May be of mine,
Its not known,
There is thunder outside,
Windows are open,
Still there is suffocation around,
For the reason unknown,
I don't know what did i take,
But i feel high,
And i have been looking at lines on the wall drawn,
Its almost the edge,
End of life,
I stood up,
I could see light,
The sun coming up,
Shining with low light,
Its time to get up,
Work,
Forget the past,
And move on,
I lit up a smoke,
Yes, its time for a new DAWN!

Will you?

Under the summer sun,
Going down the hill,
I wait for you,
Will you back me up,
When i fall,
Will you keep my care,
When there is no one there,
Will you give a hand,
When i couldn't stand,
Will you stand by me,
When no one will,
Will you be loyal,
In this greedy place,
Will you be mine,
This is all i ever wanted to say,
I wait for an answer,
Sitting under the tree,
Under the summer sun,
Going down the hill!

Ever made a stand?

Have you ever made enemies,
Have you ever made someone against you,
Have you ever made someone jealous,
Have you ever made someone hate you,
If you never did anything above,
You never took a stand for anything,
You never stood up for your decision,
You have always compromised for everything,
You never believed yourself,
Yes, you never did anything!

Disguise !

We are humans,
With less humanity,
More insanity,
We laugh at others,
Don't like being laughed at us,
We pretend in front of people,
But true of us come out after,
We show the lie as truth,
N truth as lie,
We are backstabber,
Yes we all are,
To someone,
Not even true ourselves,
We forget relations after money,
We make relations to enjoy the evenings,
We are just incredibly wild,
We are animals in human skin and a total disguise !

The Inside Story !

I move around with a fake smile,
Hiding the true tears,
Smiling at everyone,
But remembering none,
There is break apart inside me,
But i keep laughing at my own,
People say i have grown funny,
But they don't realize the pain i have been through,
Then one of them,
With no gesture,
With no other talk,
She just asked,
"You are not fine, any problem you wanna share?"
My tears burst out to her,
Heart poured out to her,
She hugged me,
And said,
"Don't worry, I am always there".

Monster in me !

I pet a monster in me,
Furious he is,
Hungry he feels,
Blood he seeks,
Want to come out when needs,
I pet a monster in me,
He has been there for years,
Cruel he grows,
Anger is his feed,
Getting stronger is all he means,
I pet a monster in me,
Made of the sadness and anger it deals,
Ready to come out any moment,
Coz revenge is all he needs!

River reflects Life !

We often complicate life,
We try for things not ours,
We try to be what we are not,
Life is a simple river,
There is good flow at childhood,
No worries,
Just a simple flow,
As we move on,
Sometimes there are rash paths,
Stones on the way,
But we move on with them cutting,
Cutting the path,
There are silent beds,
Like life's silent part,
There is utmost destiny meeting the sea,
Life has the utmost destiny,
Death,
Meeting the ALMIGHTY !

We are JAILED !

We're surrounded,
Surrounded by thoughts,
Surrounded by people,
Negativity,
Illusion,
Betrayal,

Backstabber,
We often forget to live by our own,
We are injected by thoughts of other people,
We live on the guideline provided by other,
We live by rules and regulations,
We are trained like every other person,
We are not allowed to think outside the box,
We are jailed to be what other want us to be,
We are never set free,
We are never let lived on our will,
We are just trying to be clone of those great people,
But those great ones are the only ones who are "FREE" !

Missing the other part of ME !

Sitting by the river bank,
Thinking of the worst has happened to me,
Crying out loud still no one can hear me,
Tears rolling on the cheeks with full of sadness,
I thought life has no more reason to be lived,
There came a friend,
A cute doll,
A princess by heart,
Sat besides,
Holding my hand,
Slowly whispering in the ears "I'm here, don't worry" ,
That moment paused,
I wish it paused forever,
We never stopped talking,
We couldn't even try stopping ourselves,
We never had a doubt on each other,
We knew we keep the friendship forever,
But as the time passed by,
I started moving back to the river,
The loud flow,
Not letting anyone hear my cry,
Yes, I am still waiting friend,
Its time now for you to come back,
Hold my hand again,
To pause the moment,
To live again!

Dedicated:- illi ! :(

Finding Happiness !

I wake up everyday,
Trying to feel happy today,
I move on,
I am surrounded by memories,
But i move on,
I try to find happines in friends,
I try finding it in other people,
I try finding it happiness of others,
But i don't,
There is something i lack in,
There is something i am not feeling happy about,
But soon we realise,
Happiness in what we are,
Not in what we are trying to be,
Not in what we pretend to be,
Not in what are not supposed to be,
Happiness is in what you are to yourself and in feeling me !

Saali Khushi !

Ghumte rahe zindagi bhar,
Khoj khushi ki thi,
Saamne mout aayi,
To pata chala zindagi hai wahi khushi hai,
Bachpan me khush the,
Par laga bade hona me khushi hai,
Bade hue to bhi khush the,
Par laga bachpan me khushi thi,
Khushi ke liye kya kuch nahi kiya,
khushi khud me thi,
Par pura zamana dhudh liya !

First Love!

She was sitting in front bench,
I kept starring,
She was questioning teachers,
I kept starring,
She was eating,
She was playing,
She gossip,
She walk,
Her expressions,
Her attitude,

Her smile,
I kept starring,
I made an approach,
Heart beating fast,
Confusion how to start,
Head banging,
Throat thirsty,
Words won't come out,
I said 'Hey' ,
She smiled,
And then we just never stopped,
Yes it was the first love,
The last love,
The only love!

Losing ourself !

We face serious accidents in life,
Accidents that doesn't hurt physically,
But emotionally,
You meet someone,
You feel right about them,
You put up everything to have them,
You loose other relation sometimes to hold them,
You know there is no turning back,
But you face the defeat,
You face the guilt,
They leave you for unknown stupid and idiotic reason,
They leave you for none of a reason,
You face fade in your life,
You face hate,
You face ignorance,
You face sadness,
You face guilt for those other relations,
You face dusk,
You know its dark ahead,
You feel low,
And all you have is the lost Glow!

Non-relative Thoughts !

I walk through empty streets,
Looking at every thing around,
Feeling lost in thoughts,
Wondering if i have achieved something yet,
Questioning myself if i have given my 100% ,
I feel i have everything,
But still empty hands,
I bear a heavy smile,
But inside i know the heavy heart,
I walk around like nothing really matter,
But inside i know i have lost too much,
I fear,
I fear to loose more,
I fear to be left alone,
I fear to show up my heart,
I fear that it would be left heavy again!

Maturity !

Maturity,
Its not when you are an adult,
Its not when puberty hit you,
Its not when you think it,
You are mature,
When you know the value of people,
Rather than value of things,
When you start forgiving people,
When you try to understand the misunderstanding,
When you learn to move on,
When you feel responsible,
When you know the difference between right and wrong,
When you start showing worth to yourself,
Maturity doesn't come with age,
But with experience!

Love to get you back !

Itne dino baad khushi mehsus ki hai, 
Dil ki dhadkane asal me chalne lagi hai, 
Thoda samajh kam aa raha hai, 
Khushi se aankhen nam karne ki icha hai, 
In khushiyon ko chum lun aaj, 
Baahon me bhar lun, 
Inhe kabhi juda na hone dun, 
Pal pal bas saara aaj hi jee lene jaisa lag raha,
Kash ye pal guzar na jaaye kabhi, 
Fir ye dost bichad na jaaye kabhi,
Bas hath pakad tera thoda sa ro lun, 
Teri god me sir rakh kar sukun paa lun, 
Tujhe gale laga tujhe kitna yaad kiya bata dun, 
Bas ab jaana nai, 
Kabhi bhi, 
Bas nai jaana ! :)

Dedicated to illi ! :)

Love you !

Yaadon ki baarat lekar jeeye jaa raha hun,
Dard se rishta jode ab hansne ki koshish kiye jaa raha hun,
Kasame kha kar thak chuka hun,
Ke ab kabhi tujhe yaad nai karunga,
Teri yaad me ye aankhen nam na karunga,
Is dil ko tere kare se kabhi dard na dunga,
Par kasame ab todne ki aadat si ho gayi hai maano,
Ajib si kashmkash hai ye,
Ke ab jeeye kyu jaa rahe hain,
Abhi bhi tujhe kyun yaad karte hain,
Abhi bhi kyu rote hain,
Aaj bhi meri aankhon ki gehraiyon ko padhle,
Tujhe pata chal jaayega hum tujhse pyaar kitna karte hain !


Dedicated to illi ! :)

I want to be there !

I don't mind if you are busy the whole day,
I won't complain if can't talk even nights,
But i want to be there when you want to be alone,
I want to be there when every other person take a step back,
I want to be there when you have those teary eyes,
I won't complain if we cannot have long chats,
I won't complain if i cannot be a part of your success, happiness,
But i want to be there when you lose your self,
I want to be there when you get sad and don't wanna listen to anyone, i would be there to listen to you and be quite all along,
I can't be there for you all the time ,
But i want to be there when you need a shoulder to share your sadness, your dark little secrets, your small little things you can't share with anyone else,
I just never want to let cry yourself to sleep,
I never want you to be in a bad mood right in the morning,
I just want to have to have the good morning and good nights chats with you if nothing else the whole day !

Dedicated to illi ! :)

Ironic Love !

Head start to bang,
Tongue start to shiver,
Throat unable to throw words,
Hands get cold,
Eyes don't blink,
Ears fade to hear,
Legs rarely support to stand,
The only difference is,
Before it was in excitement,
Now in total sadness ! :(

My Best Friend !

Really, you want me to describe my best friend, 
Let me tell you a few of her trends,
I say no girl beautiful than her,
No one caring as much she is,
No one can suit those dimples she have,
My best friend,
Yeah you have no match to her,
She is above you understand,
You can't judge her,
She is above your expectation,
She is two steps ahead of what you think she is,
She is notorious at times,
She is strict the other,
She will slap you on your bad,
Will show no less love when she is with you,
She care like a mother do,
Be strict like a father on your habits,
Be like a sister when you want to share something,
And protect you like a brother when you need her to,
You know what, she has no match in the living world,
Lucky enough to have her on my side,
Now i see my best friend on one and the rest of the world on the other side!

Dedicated to illi ! :)

Unforgettable love!

Aaj teri yaad aayi hai mujhe,
To ye kalam ne bhi sath de diya,
Us din bhi isi haalat me tha,
Jis din tune mera hath chod diya,
Bhul paane ki koshishen naakam si ho rahi hai ab,
Dil meri manane ko taiyaar hi nai hota,
Bas aankhen nam ai ho jaati hai ab,
Ek jhunjhuni si uth jaati hai badan me jab vo halaat yaad aate hain,
Teri vo tasveer saamne aati hain,
Tere vo udhada hua badan,
Teri vo hothon pe hansi ki jagah khoon ke dhabbe,
Tera vo hamesha ke liye chup ho jaana,
Tera vo bina soche samjhe mujhe chod jaana,
Mera bas chup raha,
Ek aansu tak na baha paaya me,
Saari indriyan jaise chalna band ho gayi ho,
Dhadkane bas ruki ruki si chal rahi thi,
Aankhen bhi khulne se mana karne lagi thi,
Kuch soch samajh nai paa raha tha,
Bas akele hi apne raaste chale jaa raha tha,
Vo teri yaaden,
Teri baaten,
Tera itrana,
Teri hansi,
Teri aankhon ki nami,
Teri shararaten,
Teri badmaashi,
Tera gussa,
Tera pyaar,
Bas sab lekar akele chale jaa raha tha,
Bas kabhi ro hi nai paaya,
Shayad rone ki himmat tak khatm ho chuki thi,
Tera vo mera hath pakad titanic ke poses dena,
Tera meri aankhon me dekh mujhe uljha dena,
Tera mujhe teri zulfon ki khushbu se madhosh kar dena,
Tera mujhe teri god me sulakar pyaar dena,
Aur tera vo pyaar se mere baalon me hath ferna,
Ab kya bacha hai,
Bas main,
Akela,
Sab kuch kabhi kabhi khatam sa lagta hai,
Ek pal tujhe yaad kar,
Apne aap ko sambhal leta hun,
Chalti ka naam zindagi kehne waalon ko pyaar ka andaaza nai shayad,
Ek baar dil rakh dete kisi ke kadmo me to pata chalta, zinda mout si hai ye ZINDAGI!

Love confusion!

Yes, I live in past,
But i want you to move on,
I have no control of my feelings,
I want you to flush them off,
I can't resist remembering her all the time,
But i want you to forget him,
I have been and going through the pain,
But i want cure yours,
Yes i am a little unorganized,
But i want to assemble up happiness to you now,
I have been in sorrow for a long time,
But i feel happy to see you happy now,
I feel majestic,
When i make you smile,
I feel the lost laugh of mine,
When i am teasing you,
I am no worth for your match,
But certainly worth a friend,
I am loving guy,
But learning how to love from you,
I am in pain,
But i learn how to smile in the pain from you,
I am not always wrong,
But i be wrong all the time to give you chance to correct me,
I feel proud to have you, may be a little, by my side,
I may be wrong in relation view on your side,
But past is past, need to forget it,
Don't burn up the burnt area,
Move away from past not get closer to get hurt of,
I may be wrong but I am not always as i suppose!

Dedicated illi !

Encouragement !

Abhi to zindagi me bohot kuch dekhna baaki hai,
Man abhi se dol gaya to piche hi reh jaana hai,
Saare aansu saare waade tod ab tujhe aage bad jaana hai,
Bohot ro liya hai tu ab uske liye,
Ab tujhe piche moodkar nai dekhna hai,
Zinda hai tu abhi zindagi jeena baaki hai,
Dhadkane karde apne lakshya ke naam,
Abhi tujhe duniya me naam kamana baaki hai,
Tujhe ab apni aukaat se bahar jaana baaki hai,
Tod de ye bhavnaon ke janjaal ko,
Ab tujhe gir kar uthna hi hoga,
Dil lagi chod apne liye ab tujhe aage badna hi hoga,
Paisa hoga to jeene me maza hoga,
Lekin fir ye baat yaad rakhna kisi gareeb ka haal puchna baaki hai,
Uth khade ho ab, dhul jhadka kar bhag ab tu,
Ab tujhe duniya ko tu kya hai vo dikhana baaki hai!

Motivating!

Samandar ki lehron sa banana hai tujhe,
Betok behisaab behana hai tujhe,
Sir fe kafan bandh apne lakshya pe nishana sadh,
Mat kar parwah dil lagi ki,
Dil lagi to aajkal aam baat hai,
Mat kar chinta dosti ki,
Dost hamesha sath hai,
Jo piche chut jaata hai choot jaane de,
Jo hath me aaye use chod mat,
Bas ab dekh vo machli ki aankh ko saadhna hai tujhe! :)

Kal hum na rahenge!

Zindagi thodi si choti hai,
Waqt ki kami hai,
Aaj sath hain kal hum na rahenge,
Kab kaun ye zindagi chod jaaye pata nai chalega,
Kal me na raha to tum aansu bahaoge,
Mjhe nai pata chalega isliye aaj baha lo,
Kal me na raha to mujhe yaad karoge,
Mujhe nai pata chalega isliye aaj yaad rakho,
Kal me na raha to humse ek baar milne ki mannate karoge,
Mujhe nai pata chalega aaj mil lo,
Kal me na raha to hum ache the kahoge,
Mujhe nai pata chalega aaj keh do,
Kal hum nai rahe to sochoge kaash kuch din bas kuch din aur mil paate baat karne ke,
Mujhe nai pata chalega aaj baat kar lo,
Logon ka zindagi me aana jaana laga hi rahega,
Bas baat ye hai ke kab kaun kaisa hai hamare liye,
Ye unke jaane ke baad hi pata chalega!

Challenges in LOVE !

Time changes,
So as people,
And does the feelings,
We try hard to make someone love us,
But we forget to try once we have them,
We show utmost care till they are far away,
We forget to care when they are so close,
We put up fights,
Be jealous,
Love them,
Help them,
But once they are yours,
You forget to even remember them the whole day,
We talk hours before,
Couldn't even take out minutes to talk later,
It isn't that the love and care is over,
But the challenge remains is,
We forget to show our love and care for them! :)

You are only one of your kind !

You are a warrior,
You face problem unavoidable,
You live rough,
You tackle bad emotions,
You feel the worse sometimes,
You go through the baddest world,
You still live on,
Giving answer to each obstacle,
Smiling in bad condition,
Laughing in worse,
You are a warrior,
You are a legend in yourself,
You are what you are,
Unchangeable,
Only one of your kind,
Be PROUD !

People around us!

People will come by,
Leave you,
Teach you a lesson for life,
And forget you,
But only rare are worth to stay,
And study these lessons with you,
They are more than your best friends,
Less than lover,
Care for you more,
And be jealous moreover,
They hide up there some feelings,
And try not to hurt you ever,
They know you,
Deeper than you know yourself,
They trust in you,
More than themselves,
They be honest with you,
More than to any other,
They did get hurt,
When you talk about the guy, your lover,
There lay we both,
In the same manner,
Fighting each other,
Loving each other,
Caring,
Helping,
Offending,
And being more than just best friends,
But always less than Lovers ! :P :P

Dedicated illi ! :)

Childhood Life !

Kab aur kyun bade ho gaye,
Chote the to shehansha the ghar me,
Ab kam hi bakhat hai hamari,
Chote the to sirf khilone tutne ka dar hota tha,
Aaj dil tutne ka dar rehta hai,
Chote the to ghar me hi ghum liya karte the,
Aaj shehar kam padta hai ghumne ko,
Chote the to dar bas maa aur papa ki maar se lagta tha,
Ab bade ho gaye hain to darna bhul gaye hain,
Chote the to maa ki saari baaten maan lete the,
Dar tha ke maa naraaz ho jaayegi to pyaar kaun karega mujhe,
Chote the to ghar se 50 paise lekar pepsi khaya karte the,
Aaj to pata nai kya kya hath lag gaya hai,
Chote the to papa se zid karke khilone kharid'te the,
Aur doston ko naye khilone dikha kar chidate the,
Ab bade ho gaye to chizon ki kadar hi bhul gaye hain,
Pehle kya pehna hai, kaise dikh rahe hain kabhi nai sochte the,
Aaj saala jaise maano in sab me hi duniya basi ho,
Chote the to ghar ki galiyon me cycle lekar jaana shaan ki baat lagti thi,
Aaj saala jeb me 20000 ka mobile chahiye hota hai shaan dikhane ko,
Pehle rote the to pura ghar sir pe utha lete the,
Aaj aansuon ka sailab andhere ki char diwari me hi aata hai,
Pehle bhari dhoop me khelne me bhi maza aata tha,
Ab mobile ke khel khelne me busy hai,
Pehle maa chilla chilla kar ghar me bulati thi,
Aur apne hathon se khana khilati thi,
Ab bas khana kha liya puchna hi kaafi padta hai,
Saala chote the to nawaab the yaar, pyaar, nafrat, irshya, in sab se dur the,
Aaj zindagi maano bas inhi bhavanaon me dubi hui si hai,
Saala bade kab aur kyun ho gaye

Bas tum!

Koi mujhse puche to kaise bataun tum mere liye kya ho,
In baadlon me tum,
In sitaron me tum ho,
Is chaand me tum ho,
Is suraj me tum ho,
In zamino me tum ho,
In aasmano me tum ho,
Pedo (Tree) me tum,
Pattiyon (leaf) me tum,
In deewaron me tum,
Meri baaton me tum,
Kya bataun tum mujhme kaise samayi ho,
Kaise bataun kis kadar mere dimag par chayi ho,
In hawaon me tum,
Udti pakshiyon me tum,
Foolon ko khushbu me tum,
Mere pahluon me tum,
Kaise bataun kis kadar tum mere dimag par chayi ho,
In jharno me tum,
Is behate paani me tum,
Khilti kaliyon me bhi tum ho,
Har ehsaas me tum,
Har jazbaat me tum,
Har awaaz me tum,
Bas is kadar mere dil par chayi ho jaise,
Sota hun to tum,
Jaagta hun to bas tum dikhayi aati ho,
Bas kami is baat ki TAQDEER tum nahi!

Life is worth !

Life,
Its more beautiful than you think,
More happier than you feel,
The problem is,
We give away the key to our happiness to other,
We forget to change the lock,
We depend on others for our happiness,
We give away easily,
We let others hurt us,
We let others bully us,
We let others take our advantage,
We start disrespecting ourselves,
we don't realize our worth,
We just loose ourselves to nothing,
We push ourselves to no place,
A lonely place,
Where you feel no one can hurt you,
But later on you realize,
You are hurting yourself!

Lost !

I walk alone,
On an unknown path,
Hands full of sadness,
Eyes full of tears,
Looking at people passing by,
Comparing my life to others,
Head banging like a drum,
Legs shivering thinking about the upcoming,
I feel lost,
Lost like in a desert,
Lost like in a mid-sea,
Lost like among unknown people,
Lost like a pin in a hay,
Lost like will never win again,
Hours, Days, months, year has passed by,
I am still lost,
In the memories we shared,
In the pain we bared,
There is no hope,
I am Lost in the hope of hopelessness!

Untold Truth of Life !

You were enjoying a life,
playing around all the time,
laughing till stomach pain,
and all of a sudden it changed to heart break,
You feel like your life chocked up,
Feel like you can swim through it,
But someone is pulling you leg down,
Someone is making you kill yourself,
The heart break making you feel all lost,
Lost in the desert of feelings,
Lost in the middle of sea,
Lost in the unworthy world,
Smile is just  mask,
Sad is all you feel inside,
Running away is no choice,
Facing seem to be problem,
Death seem to be an easy option,
You take a deep  breathe,
Stand at the edge,
Watch the beauty of mountains,
Is it worth to die of a heart break,
Is it worth to jump of the edge for,
You feel life is above her,
Life can be lived without her,
This starts again when you reach the place again,
The process,
The method,
The death thoughts,
It keeps repeating!

Confused about Life!

Sitting alone,
Facing the calm water,
Watching the sun sinking off the sea,
Thinking and admiring,
Have i ever made someone smile?
If yes, why did that person let me sit here all alone,
Thinking have i ever made my parents proud?
If yes, why do they never show it?
Asking myself, what am I ?
Am i important to someone?
Am i worth?
Am i the rightful son?
I hope I am,
I hope I will prove,
I hope I could be the only one for my someone! :)